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Notes of the Urban Wolf
Monday, January 30, 2012
Conformism, Hypocrisy and Opportunism
Sunday, January 15, 2012
Wake up and follow your dream!
Xhabir Deralla
Wednesday, December 7, 2011
DON'T LET THEM WIN
Sunday, December 4, 2011
I GIVE YOU FREEDOM
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Copyright: 2011 Xhabir Memedi Deralla
Sunday, November 13, 2011
Saturday, October 8, 2011
Thursday, August 11, 2011
Welcome To My World
Welcome to pain and absurdity and never-ending struggle
Frenetic questioning
Welcome to my continuous departures
Welcome to the relentless running away through weird landscapes
Welcome to the hordes of runaways you don’t know and will never meet
Yet they breathe into your ears, behind your eyes
My quest has never begun, it will never end
This is a microscopic drop distilled from the immense oceans
of questions and feelings
Suffering over the absurdity
Suffering over the sense that reality does and does not make
at the same time, all the time
Finding keys to doors that do not exist
The unstoppable delirium of one single human’s quest
This is the last chapter of the beginning
An invitation to commit suicide and the opposition to it
I rejected this world by embracing it and
I embraced the world that I despised
I do it day and night
The world does it to me in return
This is an unkind attempt to explain the obvious
A strike to the heart of misery,
still admitting misery as it is,
and as it cannot be escaped
I felt
I cannot feel anymore
I cried
No tears can I produce anymore
Finding truth
Until truth became an absolute lie
I lied
Not enough to survive
I crossed all lines of defense
Until it became ridiculous to defend anything
I found the ultimate solitude in the crowd
I found a crowd of ghosts inside me
I loved
I’ve been hurt
Too many times
I fell
And I found ways to fall again
I saw men, women and children who loved life
And became best friends with death and disease
I rose over the ruins of the world
But never learnt to deal with the damage
Sadness beyond sadness
Pain beyond comprehension
Why oh why did I have to see so well?
This incredible power of observation…
And such weakness before the knowledge
The torch has killed the carrier so often
Darkness has swallowed the light
So often, so often
Welcome to the chambers of decay and hum
Your brain becomes a blade under your neck
You willingly cut the throat of your hopes
It will send you to hell, where you actually belong
Welcome to my world
It’s all yours now
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Sunday, June 26, 2011
The Deafening Whisper
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Thursday, June 23, 2011
We all f...ed up everything

Wednesday, June 15, 2011
Sunday, April 24, 2011
APOCALYPSE

[1] Miroslav Stojanović-Šuki authored 20 artworks in combined techniques (project: Print on Black - No Good Will Come of This), inspired by Deralla's poems.
More info at: http://urban-wolf.blogspot.com/2010/10/print-on-black-no-good-will-come-of.html
Sunday, February 27, 2011
Sunday, February 13, 2011
CRUSADERS AND SARACENS

Dictators will stay in power as long as people are divided. Unite, before they crush you! This is a thought that I want to elaborate more comprehensively, but tonight, I will give it a more trivial dimension. I wrote this on the second day after the inter-ethnic and interreligious quarrels rose again in Macedonia. I will return to my original thought of the beginning of this note, some other time, and will be more responsible to its real weight. Here, I will just use it to begin a note about Crusaders and Saracens in Skopje in the 21st century.
Well, it all started with the government’s "next step" of the “Skopje 2014” project (worth 200 million euro or more) in the face of the so-called museum church on the Kale of Skopje. (The church alone is worth 1.7 million euro.) The leading political party of the Albanians (DUI), otherwise a coalition party in the government, argued against it. The leading Macedonian part of the government decided to freeze the project. For the time being...
The dispute started over night, literally. Actually, the government carried on building the church over night, secretly, despite its promise that the project will stop. Can you imagine? Government sneaks like a thief (over night) to a construction site to continue building a church! A crowd of angry Albanians, led by high DUI officials crumbled the construction down on Thursday night. Great! Of all issues that torment all citizens (including Albanians) in the country, these politicians picked a religious one. The Pride-Minister knows where to strike…
Yes! It was a great, sacred night. “Religion-driven” quest against “religion-driven” Pride-Minister, who probably believes he’s a conquistador or something... Crusaders and Saracens, Skopje, 21st century. Bizarre!
It caused a wave of ethnic tensions, of course. Nationalist-idiotic journalists, editors, and politicians enjoy the games again. The nationalist rhetoric, the entire arsenal, didn’t bring any new, neither less filth. Moreover, the latest incident is both inter-ethnic and interreligious. Politicians, both those in power and in opposition must be very happy with this. The more distraction from government’s wrongdoings and opposition’s incapability to offer real solutions, the better… And, people bought it, as usual…
Unemployment, poverty, international isolation, crime, corruption, violation of human rights, dictatorial behavior of those in power – will continue growing, as long as ethnic divisions and tensions exist. Those responsible of people’s troubles will get away with it, and people will hate each other for being different. Again…
That’s where I connected my thought at the beginning with these events: As long as politicians manage to divide people over this and such issues, they – the people – will be unable to unite against little-big wannabe dictators. Meanwhile, Crusaders and Saracens will fight a war of the past that will cost us the future. And, will turn this ugly city into even uglier village.
Um, wannabe dictators… I like this one.
Thursday, February 3, 2011
That Peculiar Friend

Insomnia, that peculiar friend…
Monday, January 31, 2011
Thursday, January 27, 2011
UNITED IN THE MUD
Duke (Houston control tower): “This is Houston. Say again please.”
Lovell (Apollo 13): “Houston, we've had a problem. We've had a main B bus undervolt.”
Saturday, December 25, 2010
Unhappy New Year
My Inbox is getting filled with Merry Christmas and Happy New Year e-cards these days. Most of the people I know have moved to e-mailing; it's environment friendly, cheaper, and faster. I like all aspects of it, no doubt. I probably will get a few mailed cards with my name and the address of my office in the first couple of weeks in the new year. It is mostly when governmental institutions want to play "cooperative" with NGOs. I also get some of the UNICEF cards from few others, such as bigger NGOs, and diplomatic core's offices. But, it usually remains on the level of e-cards with Merry Christmas and Happy New Year notes. Some are short videos or flash animations. Nice.
Um, maybe the best is to give some change to the nearest beggar and clear our conscience. Or, be kind to a message of peace and human rights and pretend you listen? Or, really listen to such a message, and say something like: "Someone has to do something about this, some higher authority..." And, vote for the right-wing bloodsuckers after that. And - be happy when some fat criminal invests in a factory right under your nose, because you hope for a job in that poisonous facility... And - after you or your kids get seriously ill, blame on everything but your stupidity and short-sightedness... And...
Thursday, December 9, 2010
FIGHT FOR YOUR RIGHTS!

On the International Human Rights Day, we take one more opportunity to raise our voice to call for respect and defense of human rights in our country and elsewhere in the world.
Human rights and freedoms in the Republic of Macedonia are violated in many aspects. Workers, students, children, persons with special needs, ethnic minorities, and many other categories in the society are humiliated, manipulated, and discriminated every day and in many ways. The Constitution and laws that guarantee human rights and freedoms are not implemented, or just partially implemented. Violators hold important positions in the institutions, using their positions to get away with their deeds in a scandalous way before the eyes of the whole public, disregarding decency and ethics. This behavior affects all segments of the society.
It is time to end ignorance about human rights and freedoms. It is time to speak up loud and clear about deprivation of human rights and freedoms in the Republic of Macedonia. Human rights cannot wait for better times. Better times will never come if human rights are not fully respected by everyone in favor of everyone.
Dear Friends, human rights and freedoms belong to every human being at birth. They are indivisible and universal. Human rights and freedoms make us human.
Learn about your human rights and freedoms, and tell others. That is the first step only. You need to fight for your rights, and help others fight for their rights! Violation of human rights leads to violence and destruction. The fight for your rights leads to peace, democracy and prosperity for you and your children.
Fight for your rights!
Sincerely yours,
Xhabir M. Deralla
Sunday, November 14, 2010
Thursday, November 11, 2010
SORDID LEGACY
I look at this people and wonder how stupid humans can get. I see these people going to cheap-stinking restaurants, eating and drinking cheap and lot. They get drunk and sing silly turbo-folk songs, amongst which are songs of struggle for justice and freedom from the Ottoman Empire or so. Yes, they sing of justice and freedom from an imaginary oppressor in the evening and kneel and act disgracefully before the rulers they elected themselves in the morning. They are taught to hate their fellow citizens because they speak different language and believe in slightly different gods, but they will be slaves to those of their tribe, and will sleazily obey anything they say, and will try to do even more to entertain the party leader.
To kneel is not enough! Kiss the dirt before the feet of the party leader! Lick his shoes! Eat the dirt!
I look at these impoverished and deluded people, many of them confused and scared. I hear them chanting to the leader, while he walks between the ridiculous and kitschy monuments of his vanity and fabricated history. Their minds are empty; brains washed; their stomachs are empty, only hearts are filled with stage-managed emotions. Sandwiches and Rakia is made available during the bus tour of party supporters, to fill the city squares and leave an impression that the leader is great.
These poor people support their leaders who rob them in the most unscrupulous way. These poor people believe that - by supporting these thieves today - secure a better future for their sons and daughters tomorrow. Unaware they seem to be that their sons and daughters will have to pay the terrible financial and moral debts for a long time into the future. Their daughters are going to walk the streets for money. Their sons will look to the west, seeking for a decent life, ashamed of the sordid legacy that their parents left behind.

txt&photo: Xhabir M. Deralla












